To be honest, I look at the tab on my browser for my blogspot and tell myself I should blog a bit or upload photos, but I'm too lazy usually since it's probably 2am in the morning by the time I do, or I'm just legitimately too tired to work or something. And now I find the time as I sit in a Starbucks stumped on my personal statement for my College apps to law school...
To recap on 2013: it was the craziest year for me. It went by so fast & everything was just the biggest blur, I felt like I was drunk for most of it(probably was lol) Half of it was full of college memories & the other half was the post grad aka REAL LIFE hitting me. My last blog entry was my graduation and looking back on it is so bittersweet. College is easy & hard, simple & difficult, a love & hate time of your life. There was so much stress in my life during those years, but I was the happiest I had ever been to be honest. I think back and life was so carefree. I see why people take that extra year after to just hang around and BS lol.
I went through my first real breakup(&heartbreak) last year as well. That was one hell of an experience I wish to never go through again. It was mutual, but to be honest I think, actually I know I fucked up. I was too selfish at the time, but it has made me grow, so I have little regrets. My only real regret is that our breakup ruined more than just our friendship but also of the others around us. Because we knew eachother for so long, we had a big web of friends and once our web was broken, it had a slight domino effect on the rest of the web. But I guess that how life works. I always thought I'd be the type to just brush off a heart break, but hell was I wrong. We knew eachother for almost 6 years I think. It's so hard to just get someone who you were close to out of your head like that, especially since there was no real hatred for the breakup, like cheating or something. To be honest she pops into my head fairly often now and then, just random thoughts. It sucks how you really cant be friends (atleast us) after dating for so long, I feel its just too awkward, I made one attempt, but that was way to awkward, so I gave up on that hope of bringing back a friend ship. Now were just basically strangers, I see her at the gym every now and then, but try my hardest to keep her outta my mind and any memories that may pop up, & we just walk by like we never knew eachother. I really don't know how she feels about me, but its probably along the lines of hating my guts lol. I don't really hate her, it just more of a I'm trying to forget her, I think its better to just be complete strangers. I haven't really talked to anyone about my break up, so this rant was much needed and bound to happen lol But life goes on....
After graduating I really decided that I wanted to go to law school, so I've been studying for my LSATs since August I believe, and holy shit its hard. It's actually been more demoralizing than uplifting. Ive been able to undertand and do the questions, but the time limit for the LSATs for these questions is rediculous. I have no clue how well I'm gonna do when I take it in February. But no matter what, Im motivated to go to law school. Also, I'm currently interning at a Law Firm in SJ, the drive sucks, but its fun being in the environment, I've been enjoying my time there alot and learning alot about the Lawyer life as well lol, being a lawyer is something I could definitely see myself doing in the future. I just wished I tried 200x harder in college, then maybe I coulda gotten into a top 5 law school...but who knows, I'm still hopeful lol
On to the fitness side of my life now, I'm kinda really into working out now, & I thank college for that. I dunno how but working out gets me through my weeks, even if I have to sacrifice sleep to get in a workout late after coming back from work lol. My progress hasnt been all that impressive though unfortunately, its actually been extremely slow, but thats cause I'm not putting everything I have into it. I honestly dont have enough time in the day or the patience to have a proper body building diet. I just eat what I want & workout basically. I feel healthy, and I'm happy with my body, so I'm in no rush to get a 6 pack...although I did have it at one point during the summer actually...an instagram sunfiltered one...but still a 6 pack is a 6 pack (pictured below) lol & then I began bulking & watched it slowly dwindle away lmao. I started at 180 and am working my way towards 200, I think I'm around 190 right now, a little over hopefully...progress has been extremely slow on gaining weight and I'm eating like mad too lol but I'll be cutting again soon, so I'm looking forward to having a more defined six pack this year =]
I'd go on some about my New Years Eve, but I have zero recollection of it..LMAO
I basically stopped shooting though, I really have no time, I shoot now and then randomly but the editing is too time consuming to even think about, so they all jst sit on my harddrive...I'll get back to it one day, but for now my life consists of Work, School (soon), studying, and the gym. I barely have enough time for my friends lol